.Cruel Reality.

2004-09-07T05:15:00.000-07:00

ALLOW!

I have change to Xanga. please relink me :)

http://www.xanga.com/patchworkdolls

2004-08-27T19:53:00.000-07:00

kaes.. i just cut my hair. i think i'm crazy. i simply can't resist not cutting my hair for more then two months.i just walk in the saloon with shaolin and eda. shaolin who also wanted to cut her hair too.the hairdresser came. wash my hair. few minutes later she's cutting my hair with three scissors together! -.-"

2004-08-27T05:19:00.000-07:00

listening to busted songs now. i really like their first album. busted songs really bring back bad memory........sigh. but i lurve their songs!

i just finish my adam khoo songs. i really like the course! the whole library was ours. is so cold their! plus! whatever songs u want, they have!!! songs like "pinky n e brain", "goyang goyang","sponge bob sq pants" ,"ninjaturtle" and moreeeee.... I think i'm like more motivated to study now. learnt alot of skills. blablabla.

After the adam khoo course. i can feel that my classmates are more hardworking now. which is good! the class is not that noisy anymore :).

2004-08-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

I hate my life.
i hate my brother even more!
can't he just stop thinking that he know very well? or just shut his mouth! he don't even know wad's happening. i guess his just LURVE to put words into my mouth!
this e first time. i'm still angry with my brother for more then 1 day. i always think that i shld not hate him becoz he's my bro. but! i can't take it anymore k!
"dear bro, if only u can just keep quiet there will peace between u and me. if only u can just stop being so sensitive. stop thinking that i'm trying to make ur life difficult. COZ i'm not! last but least. can u don't be so fussy?"
u make my life miserable!

2004-08-21T05:27:00.000-07:00

Pieces Of Me Lyrics

On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me
Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts
[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care
When I'm angry, you listen
When youre happy, it's a mission
And you wont stop 'til I'm there
Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have
[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah
On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe
[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...

2004-08-16T03:52:00.000-07:00

haven been updating my blog.
still in my dreamland....
life haven been good. nowadays i get irritated really easily, always giving ppl "black" face. "i'm really sorry" i think maybe because i'm just struggling ab some things.
how i wish that person can just disappear! den i can stop thinking. infact everyday i'm thinking every min every sec. does that mean is .........? i don't know

argh...................................

2004-08-09T22:10:00.000-07:00

booooohoooooohoooooo

I'm Gonna miss Mr Goh.......

2004-08-07T07:47:00.000-07:00

6.47pm.Good evening.

today i had my chinese oral. i'm so lucky is not mdm ee take me! HA! is mrs see, she's nice. overall, i think is "okay"

anyway. i went swimming with eunice after e oral at Serangoon Swimming Complex. i won't want to go there again. "yucks". The moment we step in there...we were like "??????"... we saw so many guys wearing their swimming costume lying around SUN TANNING! eeek. eunice and i only spot like three or two girls. We were wondering if this swimming complex is for MEN only? most of them are not swimming. they are all SUN TANNING!

we left the complex early...

Showtime!

my youngest sis...

The End

2004-08-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

National day celebration. E guides got to go up STAGE with our stupid bom bom! Is so lame. I don't see a need for us to stand there??!?!?!?! Waste my precious time!

anyway. I think this year celebration is abet special. We got isochronal thanks to charming kwok. "but ERM. E icecream didn't taste nice at all." , intercourse games and there's balloons too.
but. Then I got to go to day art room and complete my work. K... I'm really confused. After talking to tinghun in day art room. I think I should change my theme. But....That's really troublesome. Hmmm....Should I or should not. tension is really good in her art! She's very hardworking and put in a lot of effort in her art. Really admire her a lot. I think what make her art better then others is her talent in art and also day effort she hap put in.

okay ...Then the other half of day day was meaningless. I waited for juvena for ab 3 hour plus..."Yawn" lucky I bought a book with me. I completed reading "all American girl" whoa hoe! The book is ab a girl who's not in da "in group" end up having a boyfriend who's a first president son. whaaa...hahaha

arch! Tmr is Chinese oral! Boring! If the teacher who's gone take me is MdM EH. Then I think I'll confirm FAIL! She's so bias! Not that I hate her or what. But can't she talk properly to me when I am just trying to ask her STh. arch... I know I'm wrong to shout at her. But I'm also a human. She shouted at me first. How come teacher can shout but student can't? How come student must show respect to teacher when teachers don't show respect to student? How come the teacher can be late for class but student can't. " kaes...I'm refering to all the CHINESE TEACHERS!"

okay..Maybe I shouldn't blame her. Old ppl r lydat

Tate

2004-08-05T06:20:00.000-07:00

peace peace...
kk. now e rangers is kinda back to normal. i think i'm too busy or sick to start a "i hate u" thingy.
Today i spent my afternoon in e art class trying to complete my drawings. and yea! i did!!! hmm. still left with transformation.
okay. i got back some result. i fail my chinese! argh! i did STUDY for it k! stupid! the words all came out from the txb not handbook! ahhhhhhhh.....................!!!!!

The Rangers

Pink: Happy go lucky. but now she's more serious with her work which is good. hmm. vvvv hyperactive girl. jump here jump there.

Mojo: she's the one who always make the rangers laugh. Always do stupid things. love to talk to STRANGERS! love da mirror. love da camera. always sad because of that "toot"

Green: Siao chao bo. lurve bruce lee alot. Lurve to scream. or should i say shout? love to change her hairstyle. a very trustworthy and good friend.

Rainbow: nowhere to be seen in da morning and after school coz she's always with her hubby. use to be my WWE friend. but..that's history she's too busy with her love life. popular among the guys coz she's cute! "i agree"

Strawberry: the smartest! E1 de leh! very sweet, friendly and sporty girl.seldom hang around with her us becoz she's E1 and a PREFECT.

Red: haha. vv sweet girl look. very popular among e guys.

2004-07-31T17:53:00.000-07:00

Bonjour!
8.50am in da morning...
using my sis com...

2004-07-31T03:47:00.000-07:00

"woohoo!don't care! don't care! if u don't want to admit. i won't gib a damn too":P

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! my hse if like having like some family meeting because of my grandma. All my relative is here. is not some kind of party.argh! i hate it!

anyway... today i had my poa tuition after my guides in da staff room. mrs chia is really nice to stay back for us!:)
oh ya. i was late for my guides. think miss ong wasn't very happy. heez. but too bad. i lose interest in guides:p

p/s:
Thankz mojo and green for willing to let me vent my anger on them;). lame matt for his willingness to listen to my craps. and charlotte! for being there for me when i need her!

2004-07-25T03:02:00.000-07:00

BOO! i'm back.

just came back from church...
woo. it was fun! yummy the cha xu was good! got "wine" nahz.

sigh. still feeling so confused...
don't know don't know.
better don't think ab it. tmr common test...

okay! time to study!

gooody bye!

2004-07-23T06:56:00.000-07:00

this week have been so busy. everyday is study study.

argh.then today got chem tuition by mr oh. it was good but i'm really tired. and i'm giving myself a break now.

why am i sporean? being a spore student is not easy! so damn stress. seconday three only but i'm alread feeling the stress. i can't imagine how am i going to cope with o'lvel next year.

sigh. later i'm going study again! and tmr still got guide. don't feel like going at all! i dun understand why there is guides when common test IS COMING!

2004-07-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

I'm so damn bloody irritated by my brother! Can't he stop being so sarcastic! argh! sick still can quarrel with me! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

2004-07-19T06:14:00.000-07:00

Heez. I really thought today is going to be another boring day.
recess time, was like nitemares! Not funny k! I hate that stupid version of bdai song composed by Eunice! hmph!

The weather today so damn hot! Then argh! i lost my money. THEN! still got napfa after sch. kaoz.. was feeling so pek. then juvena trying to cool me down. "heez. sorry bad temper"
During the shuttle run, dunno wad happened. Suddenly feel leg damn2 pain. mr ng say muscles tear. so juvena bought ice for me to put on my legs. so nice of her =) hahaha. eda even volunteer to piggy back me coz i really can't walk. hahaha. mr ng excuse me for the other stations! so happy! just sit there and relac.

woohoo! after napfa. eda,juvena,justine,joc and tiffany say go serangoon club and makan.
hahaha. went there. everyone looking at us! coz we were wearing our uniforms mahhz. plus we were so noisy in the restaurant and also disturbing the botak waiter:P
Really laughed until stomach pain with ppl like joc and juvena there. hahaha.

heezzz. so happy to receive a long long letter from eunice! thankz girl!, also bdai sms from friends,presents"yk! hahah next time please wrap it la!" and! my mates! who bought me to serangoon club to makan! lurve u guys so muchie!

2004-07-18T03:31:00.000-07:00

sunday! i slept until like 11. and i was very late for my church. heez. sunday school was quite boring. think the topic is boring and plus my friends wasn't their. Tuanqi? is was fun too. today worship is lead by patrick.

woohoo! go go go mp go! fight fight fight mp fight! win win win mp win! we are the mp's fans!

yesterday, went to cheer for a soccer match. MPs vs Ex national team. i thought it was going to be boring. but! heeez. it was fun! k... first we gathered at music room at 1 plus then change into our UGLY costume! then... miss tan say is a must to put makeup!"argh,i hate lipsticks"

blablabla... then we reach the stadium. i was wondering if fandi ahmad will be there too. THEN! i really saw him!!! yahhooo! he's very charming! number seventeen!!!
and haha... we are like one the VIPs too! we ere ask to take photos with the MPs and Ex national team! many of my friends got chance to shake hand with fandiahmad. and meihui even took photo with him!!

now kinda miss the dance club ppl. Most of them are really nice ppl. ppl like meijing,kayi,nuru,meihui,shan2 and many more!

yeayea! overall it was a really memorable day. but it was also tiring. i won't want to do it again.

this was supose to be our costume. it really suckz! then lotsa of ppl complain. then in da end they change the top to one black t-shirt. but it still look weird

hahahaz. my class is really crazy. everyday take photos.lolz. the guy beside me is my class CRAZY chairman! he's really crazy! A WEIRDO!

2004-07-16T12:55:00.000-07:00

just came home. but going out soon for da stupid cheerleading thingy! i really wonder is guides is ALL ABOUT CHEERLEADING! i'm SICK of it ! later even worst cheering for mps and wearing the yucky costume!

monday is da day i know whether my friend is going to be expell or not.sigh... i really hope not. she's such a good friend. don't wish to her leave. i really hope rathi wun be so cold blooded.

2004-07-15T01:49:00.000-07:00

today went to pass the petition to mrs rathi then spent my whole recess talking to her. i think maybe my friend MIght not be expell. don't know don't know. i hope not.
one time good about her is she's very polite. Other then that.... no comments. she say she appreciate us for spending the time to write a letter to her. hmmm.....

anyway...nth much to type (joc beside me now:P) goodbye!

2004-07-14T05:48:00.000-07:00

tons of things happened today.
today ish eda's bdai "happybirthday".

sigh... but i'm no mood to talk about it. My friend is getting expelled! why? BECAUSE SHE MISS HER CCA! and that's only one time k! WTF? have u ever heard of such thing? getting expell because of missing cca??? rati say looking at my friend LAST YEAR bad record PLUS he not going for cca for only ONCE! she wanna expell her!
for her bloody information my friend CHANGE ALOT K! she's now a hardworking girl! and she did well for her mid year and common test!
does she mean when a person did sth wrong there is no way the person can turn into a new leaf?
THIS IS SO UNFAIR!
she's given three days to look for a new school. and if she can't find i don't know what rati will do to her.
i pray and hope there will be miracle

2004-07-12T10:47:00.000-07:00

das das...
why? am I transparent? Must i continue to pretend? Sigh...
I knew that will happen. time for me to wake up from my Lala land.......

2004-07-11T04:05:00.000-07:00

A man went to a barber shop to have his hair and his
>beard cut as always. He started to have a good
>conversation with
>the barber who attended him. They talked about so many
>things and
>various subjects. Suddenly, they touched the subject
>of God.
>
>The barber said: "Look man, I don't believe that God
>exists as you say so.
>
>" Why do you say that?" - asked the client.
>
>Well, it's so easy, you just have to go out in the
>street to realize
>that God does not exist. Oh, tell me, if God existed,
>would there be
>so many sick people? Would there be abandoned
>children? If God
>existed, there would be no suffering nor pain. I can't
>think of a God
>who permits all of these things."
>
>The client stopped for a moment thinking but he didn't
>
>want to respond so as to prevent an argument.
>
>The barber finished his job and the client went out of
>
>the shop. Just after he left the barber shop he saw a
>man in the
>street with a long hair and beard (it seems that it
>had been a
>long time since he had his cut and he looked so
>untidy).
>Then the client again entered the barber shop and he
>said to the barber: Know what? Barbers do not exist."
>
>How come they don't exist?"-asked the barber. "Well I
>am here and I am a barber."
>
>No!" - the client exclaimed. "They don't exist because
>
>if they did here would be no people with long hair and
>beard like
>that man who walks in the street."
>
>Ah, barbers do exist, what happens is that people do
>not come to me.
>
>" Exactly!"- affirmed the client. "That's the point.
>God does exist,
>what happens is people don't go to Him and do not look
>for Him that's
>why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

2004-07-11T03:53:00.000-07:00

i was suppose to meet weixu for bible study before church start. buttt... when i already walk to da mrt station, i realise i forgot to bring my wallet out! argh! then i walk walk walk back home and take.

the weather today was damn hot!!!!!!

And when i step in da church it was damn cold!

anyway... had fun in church today. starting to love tuanqi! yeah! today programme was fun

hmmm... i like this skin!

long lost photos!

i saw this photo in my primary school webbie!

and this photo... i took it when i was only like sec1? with joc!

2004-07-10T06:38:00.000-07:00

i love the song "frighter" the lyris does make sense. yesterday was promotion day. It was fun, glad to see everyone happy.*heez* we play water bombs...it was fun BUT not as fun as sec3 camp de:p

sat..went to school. intergeneration day. it was fun cheering. and looking at how the ah ma and ah gongs enjoying themselves.the games are lame. But the ahma and ah gongs enjoyed it!

okay goodbye~!

2004-07-10T06:33:00.000-07:00

Christina Aguilera Fighter lyrics

After all you put me through
You'd think I'd dispise you
But in the end I wanna thank you
'Cause you made that much stronger

Well I thought I knew you, thinking that you were true
Guess I, I couldn't called your bluff, time is up
'cause I'e Had enough
You were there by my side, always down for the ride
But your joy ride just came down in flames
'Couse your greed sold me out in shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do,
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'cause it

(Chorus)
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

oh oh oh, ooh yeah yeah yeah, uh uh

Never saw it coming,
All of your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I'd realized your game
I heard you're going round
Playin' the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes your wanting to HURT me
But that won't work anymore, uh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'cause it

(Chorus)
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU WON'T STOP ME

I am a fighter and I (fighter and I)
I ain't gon stop
There is no turning back
I'VE HAD ENOUGH

(Chorus)
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget but I
I remember
Yes, I remember
I'll remember

Thought I would forget but I
I remember
Yes, I remember
I'll remember

(Chorus)
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

2004-07-06T04:27:00.000-07:00

sigh...
common test coming...
when i was sec2 i always thought sec3 life is gonna be fun:( "i'm totally wrong!"
is so boring... u can't slack at all or u will really suffer in e end. and really there's alot of peer pressure. When u want to study they want to go out and have fun. Is difficult to find a study partner.
Everyday, mates are planning where to go after school or dressing up nice nice and go out on sat or Sunday

Think now i only enjoy going to church. the people there are more "normal" they know when to study and and when to play. Learnt a lot from them.

kaes...anyway. Today my dad SUDDENLY came to sch and fetch me home. argh! since when he's SO free and "NICE". He even push back his appointment just to come my school!!!!!! wonder wad's he up to.nvmvnvm...i went home eat then came out to meet my old friends and rangers at heartlandmall.

another boring day!!!!!!!

wads the meaning of love? this word seem so farrrr....
maybe i'm still too young to talk about it.

2004-07-03T14:29:00.000-07:00

still thinking still admiring

2004-07-02T23:13:00.000-07:00

sigh.can't my dad just be more understanding? and believe what i say?
w h a t e v e r...

Anyway...today got cedar campfire. still thinking whether i should go or not? ish from 7pm tp 9.30pm but i think it usually will end ab 10. then iwill reach home about 11. worried that i will reach home late and my dad gonna go crazy again.

tons of things for me to do. i haven complete my holiday hw. still have social studies,english and maths. and also i need to do my art which is drawing for o'level. feeling so stress. only sec3 but is already like preparing for o'level. Tuesday got chinese spelling. usually i wun study for it.but i think i should already ya. for my own good.

sigh... still got church programme to plan. really needs lotsa of ideas to make tuanqi programme intresting.

monday going to sentosa, a day for me to relax. actually i'm still in holiday mood though i still pay attention in class. "except chem" but i don't do my hw or do self study. i'm a super lazy girl....

eda's bdai is coming still dunno what to buy for her. things in her wishlist are all so ex. or is impossible for me to buy it for her.

old friend coming back on sunday. coool!

"missing 2e5"

2004-07-01T07:10:00.000-07:00

peaceful day...

went to harbourfront with edaong... saw lotsa cute pets.

argh! boring boring boring. starting to hate school life.
chem teacher change back. mr ben tan not teaching us anymore. haiz sian. my chem already so lousy still le...still change teacher. Now every chem lesson is soooooooo noissssssy. 3E4 SUCKS! PHEW!

actually i should say i hate 3e4 not school life. i just don't like some of the guys in our class. so disgusting so pervert! yuckz! black sheeps in the class!
but there are some nice ppl in 3e4 too. funny ppl lame ppl.
ahhhh..whatever! overall i still think 3e4 SUCK!

2004-06-30T05:42:00.000-07:00

oh hmm...my old friend coming back soon... cool!

2004-06-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

sigh... bloody toot! went to DM room again! why? becoz that time bev nver bring chinese book then i thought nvm la...let teacher write my name in da yellow form since my record is "quite" clean. so i gave my book to bev. and e chinese teacher wrote my name.
BUT! then...... the next chin period i was caught "sleeping" by rati again! i DIDN'T K! i was doing my chinese work...staring at the thingy for too long u will feel tired de RITE? so i thought i rest awhile. i even remind myself not to sleep or esle kanna caught by rati again. sway sway! she walked passseddd.... then she sent me to DM room. THEN this morning go DM room coz of the nver bring book thingy!

ARGH! really BAD LUCK!

But nvm after school i had fun with moi RANGERS friends! went heartland mall with them. then eunice disturbing the MALE passer-by. It was damn funny..laugh until my stomach pain.

2004-06-28T04:14:00.000-07:00

stupid PE lesson. make me run NINE ROUNDS around the field! then after that i was feeling so tired le...no mood to listen to chinese teacher. "since when i did?" i end up sleeping den got scolding from mrs rati. then chem lesson also fall alseep. blame who?!?!?! BLAME MISS OW!:Pp

After school went to canteen makan with my RANGERS friends. makan makan play play until 4 pluz... then went to mac. as usual i saw the MAC BOYS! dotz...mac is like their second home?

keke...feeling very tired."miss ow fault!"
goooodbbbye!

p/s: stupid zy!

2004-06-26T06:15:00.000-07:00

having sore throat again!

2004-06-25T07:59:00.000-07:00

Brandon sent this to me, find it really meaningful.Mates, try to read the whole thingy ya.

THE POEM

I knelt to pray but not for long,

I had too much to do. I had to hurry and get to work For bills would soon be due.

So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.

My Christian duty was now done

My soul could rest at ease.

All day long I had no time

To spread a word of cheer. No time to speak of Christ to friends,

They'd laugh at me I'd fear.

No time, no time, too much to do,

That was my constant cry,

No time to give to souls in need

But at last the time, the time to die.

I went before the Lord, I came, I stood with downcast eyes. For in his hands God held a book; It was the book of life.

God looked into his book and said

"Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down...
But never found the time"

2004-06-22T04:57:00.001-07:00

MUMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!

i accidentally deleted all the photos in my cam! and the photos are e photos took in east coast! *2e5bbq*

oMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

boooohoooohoooo!!!!

2004-06-22T02:20:00.000-07:00

I am 18% evil.

I try to stay away from evil deeds but succumb to temptation every once in a while. I'm not quite on my way to hell but I certainly have some explaining to do.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

i saw this in jenny's blog so went to try. hehe jenny i'm 5% less evil then u.

boooohoooohooo! i deleted e photos~!!! sob!

2004-06-21T03:16:00.000-07:00

hehez! change skin again! no more humans heads! is only the BODY!

feeling kinda happy! so i change into sth not so dull...

I'm so glad that many ppl say dey enjoyed e camp! whoohoo!

yesterday,was my last day of church camp*sob* we left da camp site and went back to church. After church i went to makan with dao shi and mates. then...went home and change and RUSH TO e 2e5 bbq! phew~ was a busy day for me. BUT it was worth it!

The church camp rawks! though the whole camp i was running here and there, panicking about the programmes but! it really worth it when u see ur brothers and sister enjoying! hahaa..da manito thingy was terrible!:S Da sermons were great!the sharing was great! the camp was MEANINGFUL and of coz FUN! i got to know my tuanqi brothers and sisters even better.i'm starting to LOVE tuanqi!yeah!

The 2e5 bbq! overall ish fun! the best part was when play with the seawater and taking photos!*all those lame pose*
throwing ppl to the sea! oh ya! those guys are MEAN! i didn't bring extra clothes and they still threw me down da sea!!!! but nvm... in e end we all took taxi home.I was really "gangdong". The taxi was all "on call" or "hired" and when the first taxi came my mates let me take e taxi first! becoz they say my dad will scold me if i reach home late! ~sob~ reached home at 11.30. feeling like a salty fish!

suddenly i feel that i'm so blessed! to be able to attend tuanqi! and also to have my wonderful 2e5 friends!

2004-06-16T22:24:00.000-07:00

Nothing to type so i thought i just paste this thingy here.
since i feel that this kinda make sense

2004-06-16T08:18:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! i have soooo many things to do!
i have my church stuff the church camp thingy
2e5 bbq!
tuanqi thingy!
homework!!!!

actually...i must blame myself. i drag until today then start doing!
ahhhhhh.......driving me crazy!

2004-06-16T06:47:00.000-07:00

heya! change my blogskin...

yukai say ppl change their blogskin depend on their mood...
i kinda agree...
i'm not in a goody mood so i change my blog to all grey!

2004-06-13T22:27:00.000-07:00

I never hate u, I never love u,

I never like u and I will never like u.

I did not dislike u,but now I do.

I will not forget what u have done.

You hurt me deeply, embarrassed me,

And I’m disappointed.

I bet the scar will take years to heal.

~disappointment cast a shadow

2004-06-13T13:14:00.000-07:00

hi backie!
Just camp back from guides skin. I got lotsa of mosquitoes bites! and of coz my skin is even darker now!!! *screaming* the guides camp was not bad la. Not as terrible as last year. But as usual i did wash the toilet! hmm...i think guides camp kinda teaches us how to be a good maid.

*A song i learnt in guides camp.

I love my manito, yes i do

I love my manito,yes i do

I love manito, yes i do

i love my manito, but i won't tell who

I got a feeling warm and gay

As she cast her eyes my way

I will reveal her name some day

But who she is i will not say.

2004-06-08T07:37:00.000-07:00

oh ya! sorry jenny i forgot!
keke for ur sake! here----> 91393741

2004-06-08T07:27:00.000-07:00

HELLO SINNERS!:P

today went to east coast. damn tiring man... didnt enjoy at all! I went their with my church friends to plan for church camp games. Ride the bike from 12 to 4! non stop...

Anyway,i have like two more days to live. GUIDES CAMP IS COMING! *Mummmmmyyyyy i dont wanna go!* How i wish i can be hospitalize! Then i dont need to go da stupid camp!

goodbye~

2004-06-06T23:26:00.000-07:00

borrringggg......
Looking for blogskins...but all like so yucky!

2004-06-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

Today is Sunday...

Sunny Day

went to church as usual! Saw Christina who just came back from america! wow she is gorgeous! Hmm...today tuan qi was kinda fun. We had sermons. Then ordered pizza! hoho! yum yum! Then got com meeting! It was quite boring... from 4.20 to like 7 !!!!

SAt i went to jun.s hse. When to eat rotiprata! quite shocking to see wk and his family there also makan-ing. wha...im so jealous!!!! he.s like really close to his family members! One happy family. I wish my family can be like his tooooo. *fat hope!*

ohya!i want to change my blogskin...but lazy lei. next time~
tata

2004-06-04T10:46:00.000-07:00

should i change my skin?

hmm..kinda sick of this skin. And this blog is "WEIRD" i dun even know there is music codes in the template. anyway i can't hear it. but my friends say they can. BUT! sometimes can't. oh ya... and they say there is also a alert what "eeeekkk...hug me" Crazy! see! weird weird skin.

so? i think i should change my blogskin! Lotsa of "hug me" in this blogskin. But i edited the template ;)h.e.h.e.
but... i like this skin. i like the babies in the photo! so adorable!

jenny say all my blogskin always have one picture of a human. hahaha...ya i also notice it. I think human are b-eautiful! hahaa... i mean outer beauty not inner beauty! human look B-eautiful outside.But really ugly inside! Human Are All Sinners! hahahaha!

2004-06-04T06:25:00.000-07:00

yahooooooooooo!

I watched harry potter today after my church meeting!**pss! jenny heard that!**yeah! with zy,yk and sL! We got the best seats! FRONT ROW! -.-". but nvm! hehe.

BUT! during the movie...i was busy explaining to zy the story! he don't understand it ANYWAY all of them don't understand it coz they didn't read the book! But all liars! come out of the theater all blur like sotongs! still say they understand! LIARS!hahaa...

okay! goodddbye!

2004-06-03T21:41:00.000-07:00

B-o-r-e-d!
I haven really go out and have fun with my mates!!! everyone seem to be busy

h.a.h.a! goodnews! zhongyi jus called! hehe! he say he's free to go watch HARRY POTTER!.I hope there's ticket! *praying hard* YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! byebyebye!!!!

2004-06-03T06:17:00.000-07:00

2e5 gathering! sad to know that there are still some ppl who can't be bother to come! u ask them if they r coming they will say " see first" argh! what see first? But glad that majority wants to come for the gathering.thanks to sulestri organizing this gathering! sigh. Miss 2e5 so muchie!!! hmm...for sure i know F4 and zhong family will come. haha...

2004-06-02T12:48:00.002-07:00

Guides camp is coming.................! ~B-oring!~
Tons of holiday hw! Started on my geo...
ohohoh! harry potter! i wanna watch!!! hmm...maybe i'm watching it tmr. Hey! is not a kiddy show ke! is just magical!

oppz! gotta go! goodbye

2004-05-31T14:44:00.000-07:00

hiya! just came home. went out with my church friends.
Lotsa of holiday homework to complete!!! yawn~ feeling tired...feel like sleeping. goodbye.

2004-05-30T22:29:00.000-07:00

Argh! can't stop sneezing! having fever and flu.
no energy to type......... stop here.

2004-05-27T06:55:00.000-07:00

Parent meeting day~
7pm- mrs rati giving talk. Actually i find it interesting lei. hahhaa...the best part is she show the total percentage of passers for every subject! hahaa... the result was so terrible! hahahaa... pro! they even dare to show it! Combined science msg was like 7 or 6 ? history 7, maths i think 5 or 6? h.a.h.a

keke..then mrs rati talk for like 1 hour. My dad almost fall asleep. Weird* i was the one listening to the talk not my dad! My dad kept asking me what time mrs rati will finish her talk.

8pm! Go to class. AND! here's the scariest part! My chinese teacher was there too!!! She talked to my dad for like 30 mins? told my dad EVERYTHING! late for class la,nver do homework in class and told my dad i'm very playful! BUT! hehe! she got praise me too! hahaha.. End up both of them nagging me. *lucky nver scold* phew~!

THEN! my dad's turn to see mr tan! got back my repot book. I did badly! veryveryveryvery! SO FRIENDS! please kindly stop ASKING ABOUT MY RESULT! please please please! i don't want to talk my result ke! please please!:)I dont even want to take a second look! Dont want to discourage myself!

I really need to work very hard for my ca2 and final exam! no more slacking. sigh.

2004-05-26T06:51:00.000-07:00

This Entry is for my two dear friends! Jenny and Eunice! Jenny! Dont worry k! U will get Ur freedom sooner or later! my dad also dun gib me lotsa of freedom! Everyday nagging and scolding! But I jus have to bear with it! Few years more and I can do anything I want without asking for his permission! Jenny!!! Smile!!!!
Eunice! dun let that person bully u anymore ke!!! be happy!

2004-05-26T04:52:00.000-07:00

HELLOOO!
What a meaningless day...
Spent my whole day in school walking here and there. Visiting lower sec and upper sec class. hey! I have a big task u know! that’s to call ppl to go dental! ah ha! very important job!

After school, went to eat with bev,eda,yukai and zhongyi at bendemeer market. Then...as usual bev go out with her wai chong. Zy went home to play com game(kiddy). yukai go home. Eda came to my house. slack around...using my computer.

See... a meaningless day rite?!
Not really...later I’m going to pack my English file to hand in tmr.

keke~ goodbye~

2004-05-25T02:53:00.000-07:00

ha! change my blogskins! Bored of the previous blogskin! so change one. hahaa...yea! finally not a all light blue or dark blue skin! i like this template!

Anyway...today didn't go school. Don't know... too lazy le. Maybe is because i slept late? hahaa... jus hope that mr tan wun ask for a M.C from me. haiya...go school also slack around.

I got back my midyear exam result. pass everything except for my geo. i'm already happy le...coz i nver really put in lotsa of effort this time. BUT!!!??? my midyear exam marks combined with my Ca1!!! end up failing 3 subjectS!!! sigh...blame who? blame myself for not working hard for ca1.

sigh...my dad is going to kill me! parents meeting day coming. I bet mr tan have lotsa things to say about me. OFCOz is not sth good! Obviouly that he don't like me.

IAM Dead!

2004-05-23T05:28:00.000-07:00

alrite alrite... everyone's blog are talking about the camp. Hmm...so I think I should too huh?

Okay...the camp was DAMN fun!!! Never regret going at all! The first day was damn fun.

Kk...first day we reached there and spilt into our groups. At first I thought my group was going to be Boring becoz I thought my group members were all "boring" BUT! Actually they are all so nice nice! After the first activity we became united! Haha! Partly must thanks our group instructor who's so patient with us! Kk...then we tried high elements stuff! Rock climbing was difficult but fun fun. One of the stations was damn scary! Had to climb like 4 to 5 storey high.then come down with just a rope! But of coz safety belts lah. Zuri was in-charge of that station. Zuri!he was so nice to me.;P I was feeling so scared haha...because b4 me jenny cried. hahaha...but then I’m a brave girl k! I never cry! But...erm...next station I did.:P BUT HEY that's was damn scary and pain!I got lotsa of cuts and bruises! Okay then blabla...instructors team up together to pour water on us! Then we makan and went back to school. THEN MR TAN lecture us kaoz....cannot tahan he talk so damn slow. But anyway then we had WATER BOMB! Yeah!!! I love it! nice nice! Beverly and I ran here and then pouring water at everyone we know. esp. shijing *poor guy*. Then makan... Bathing! Bev and I waited so long for our turn. But nvm! Then we slept in the hall but it was so hot! so juvena and i went to canteen and sleep! NICE! the whole canteen was only two of us! hahahaa...

Second day was quite boring la...but overall was quite fun! hoho~ the person who brief us for dragon boat was so handsome and the another who's incharge of our group! hahaha... keke

I miss the camp!!! so much!!! esp the instructors! linling!, BOB! hahaha that stupid guy tried to scare me when i was at that four storey high tower! Then another instructor "plaster boy" he's damn nice! I love my group! we really work us a team! Love my group members! THe guys were so nice don't mind carrying those heavy stuff and the girls were not at all so "girl girl"

I MISSSSS THE CAMMMPPPPP SO MUCHIE!

2004-05-22T07:34:00.000-07:00

Talking to yukai on the phone now. He's sad and i'm sad too. I jus had a conflict with jun. She's angry with me now. I tried to gib way but still i can't control my temper. sigh... sad. my only best friend i really hope our friendship wun end~ really sad feel like crying.sigh. *praying hard* i'm such a useless friend......

2004-05-16T21:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i was feeling angry and blabla. So i called brandon. I feel much better after toking to him on the phone. He gave lotsa good advice, pointed out my mistake. Great brother i have!
So i told myself i will not hate that person anymore. But everytime i see that person nick in msn or frienster. My blood start to boil. sigh...
Sad,angry and disappointed.

okok enough!
yesterday just when i was going to offline randy online. haha... glad that at least he nver forget his spore friend. At least evertime he bother to say hello in msn.

Now chatting with joc and shaojie(e baby boy) Joc joc! really cheer up my day. SHe's so lame! hahaa really a good joker. love her lots! and shaojie! hahaa..lame guy. he's action is always so stupid! dump boy!

kk tata... gotta go. Going out with jun later.

2004-05-16T05:03:00.000-07:00

i'm still feeling lonely,sad and angry! sigh...
just came back from church. Today my sunday school teacher taught me how to forgive our brothers and sister. I really learn alot today but i don't know if i'm able to apply what i have learnt.

2004-05-15T23:17:00.000-07:00

sigh..she's changed! completely diff after mixing with .....
really disppointed... sigh. Heck* non of my business.

2004-05-14T00:25:00.000-07:00

suddenly feel like updating again...
u know eunice always say pretty girls gets everything...
i really think is true...
i have some friend who are damn gorgeous. They really gets everything...everyone is nice to them. ESP the guys.they look pretty no matter what they wear or what hairstyle they cut. Everyone wants to make friends with them.

hahaha....don't i sound like euncie
hahahaa kk...seeya

2004-05-14T00:06:00.000-07:00

sry my dear eunice... lazy lar
Anyway...today no school! woke up at 1plus hoho~... eda,juvena and bev went to sentosa. Don't wanna go coz i want to SLEEP! during the exam period,i haven been sleeping well...every night doing last min study.

hahahaaaa.... no more exams FOR ME! yesh yesh! but then still worry for my exam result. argh! my art! i anyhow draw anyhow colour! kkk...don't want to tok about exam!

I realllllllyyyy don't like that person! argh! really irritate me!!!! my sunday school teacher told me i should think carefully why i don't like that person! and i thought about it........ i don't he/her actions! character! just hope that i can stop disliking he/her. i don't feel good too.

keke...camp is coming! next thursday! hohoho... just can't wait anymore!!! hahahaaa.... hmm...this really remind me of the sec1 camp hahaha...sec1 camp was boring becoz i dunno anyone but i think this camp will be diff lah...

btw...please don't contact my phone "91930965" i lost the sim card ;) hahaha...
kk tata~

2004-05-11T05:14:00.000-07:00

wha... blogger change le...hmm... is better i think? not too sure yet.

hmm...not gonna talk about my exams!;)

TOday went to ymca mac with friends to do our art preparation. Quite fun?! haha... my friends wasn't concentrating...they were looking at erm "ymca's hunks?". handsome?!! maybe? okay la... all look so typical.

blablabla..... yahooooo!!! next week is sec3 CAMP!!!! whahahahah! so happy! sad... got watersports. " WATERPHOBIA!" oh man.

oppz! i need to do my art le ...goodbye!

2004-05-09T02:50:00.000-07:00

HeLL LO!
sigh...think i'm gonna fail my chinese again! i only studied two chapters! and i have 18 chapters to study!!!!!!!!! really scared that i will do badly for my midyear.

sigh...no mood to type. go study.............bye

2004-05-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

ha! change my blog's skin. *jennnyy??*
and yep! is all blue again! nono this time is Light Blue. I can't find any nice purple skins!!! nvmnvm...i changed my tagboard's scrollbar and msg front colour to purple! yea!

10:12pm! and i haven study my chinese. nvm nvm...i will sleep late to study my chinese!*fat hope*

keke...nth much to type. goodbye!

2004-05-07T08:06:00.000-07:00

Hell Lo Every Bodies...

iam just feeling really bored, so i'm back here!
Jack just told me he' busy studying! S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G ? omg! hmm...maybe he's busy S____T_____ *pss,jack if u r seeing this i bet u know what it means. Ritez?*
kk. dun talk about that jacko le

hmm...sec3 camp is coming soon! yahoo! looking forward. After sec3 camp then girlguide camp! sigh2. boring! gotta sleep in that stupid tent! then wash toilet. UNDER THE HOT SUN EVERYDAY omg...somemore four days three night! ~faint~ after sec3 camp,guide's camp after guide's camp CHURCH camp! yeah! so happyyy...but quite stress too need to plan the games for the camp.

oh man...i haven study my chinese. I think i go sleep now then wake up early to study? * i hope so*

GOodybyes

2004-05-07T06:58:00.000-07:00

hey witch doc what's the magic word!

haha...yeah! finally i have some rest! tmr no exams! i'm so happy!!! finally! i can sleep as long as i like! yeaH! no guides no exams! arh...so happy! but....... i'm having my chinese paper on monday.*oh man*

hmm.... let's see...anything intresting happened today?yesterday? hmm....nope nope. Oh ya...saw nurisman today haha...he look so shy shy. and yar...yesterday bev and waichong went hm together hahaha...that funny couple.

yar...and today that attention seeker.... sigh i really cannot tolerate that person!
such a liar such a ..... kkk...dun feel like toking about that person. argh!

Anyway...i haven nth much to type...so goodybyes!

2004-05-01T04:54:00.000-07:00

lalalalalala... haha...actually i didn't wanted to update my blog today...but jenny ask me to...so to grant that small little girl wish...TADA!~ here iam!
hahaa...iam so gan dong, didn't know that there will ppl who will bother to read my blog. I thought i this blog only for myself to read.
hahaha... yeah... today study with jun. Then went heartland mall walk walk. I really enjoy her company. My one and only bestfriend! just like a sister to me! jun if u r reading this! just want to say i LOVe u! haha...of coz not forgetting my small little jenny ... who always bother to visit my blog! luv ya too~

2004-04-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

hihi! hehe...finally update my blog....
Sry sry ...really lazy to update my blog...
sigh... So many things happening again... i'm really sick and tired of that. I tried to hide my feelings but sometimes I still end up grumbling about it then gossiping about ppl. Everyday, I feel lonely even when there are lots of friends around me. Partly, I think is because.... I know these ppl around me r all not true friends.pessimistic? I dunno... i just feel really lonely everyday... i can be smiling happily but deep down in my heart no one knows how i'm feeling. No one from bendemeer. I really dislike/hate 3e4... not becoz of all the classmates but some ppl... they are soooo "speechless". But...i did made some good friend from 3e4... juvena,rabeeah,weiyang,rufu and more...
I'm "lost" no one i can share with in bendemeer...not that everyone in bendemeer are bad is just that some are really nic ppl but just dun feel comfortable sharing...and i dun want to tell the whole story again coz they seldom hang around with me and they dunno what exactly happened...they are juz listening to one side story" which is mine side"
"sad,disappointed,lonely,stress ...."

2004-04-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

hiya! haha...so long nver update my blog le...lazy!
ta la la la.... today, as usual went to library and slack around....
really nice place to slack coz got aircon! haha...really fun... shaojie,eda,bryant and others....hmm..shaojie's action always so cute cute and stupid stupid de...hahaaa....bryant? actually i really think that he's quite a nice guy. I hope he can get over with that person... =)
sigh..................midyear exam COMING!!! argh....haven study! think about midyear exam...no mood to type......goodbye~

2004-04-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

i'm like half dead,just came back from doctor.
sigh... why am i so bad temper? can't i just hide my feelings, pretend nth happen and shut my mouth? sigh... where are my friends? when i really need them badly,need somone to show care and concern to me.all of them seem to be goon. Forget it!i will nver find a true friend in bendemeer. I'm already glad that i was in 2e5 coz i made lots of good friends there. But really sad that we are all in different class now.
Maybe the reason why i can't find a true friend is because of my attitude. But i really find it difficult to treat a person nice when i know that person is a hypocrite and liar..............

2004-04-16T05:54:00.000-07:00

hahaa...posting another entry.
So happy change the blog's skin! haha... so blueeee. hehaa....thankz jenny ! always visiting my blog!

2004-04-16T04:16:00.000-07:00

HEHA! yea... my brother allow me to come online.
Yup yup..today was a fun fun day! haha...again bryant la,yongkai la,shaojie la and eda la...we went to library and chitchat. Actually i wanted to do my project there but........hahaaaa..... but anyway yukai taught me " Trading account" in the library. I think he's the best POA tutor! Oh ya.... tsktsk today POA lesson was damn damn damn noisy ...haha eunice was screaming coz someone took her chair...no one was paying attention to mrs chia... "so sad" sighhhh...i still think that 2e5 is the BEST! ANyway...visit this webbie http://www.2e4-frenz.com/ben3e4_studios.htm

2004-04-14T01:26:00.000-07:00

shitty... so bored... hmm... i still think that my blog is too pink haha
today i'm sick so didn't go school... so bored at home... later going to study and do all the homework i owe teacher... Chatting with fredrick now..he say i dao -.-" lol. hahaa..wanted to write one long entry but hahaa..seem that i have nth much to say le ...so GOODBYE..............

Simple Plan
Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
Do you think i'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do?'
Cuz it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make itI just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for youI can't pretend that I'm all rightand you can't change me'
Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last for everI'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
And now I try hard to make itI just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you'
Cuz you don't understand

2004-04-14T00:20:00.000-07:00

NEW BLOG! hehaaa.... my previous blog caused me lotz of trouble soooo..TADA! change blog! :) so pink huh. At first this blog's skin was all blue...but then my com hang..then !!!G.O.N.E!!! haha... yup yup anyway ..gotta go find some nice music to put here.